SALVAGED 

 

SALVAGED 

  

I stand on the edge of the rooftop 

And I jump. 

Down. 

Time slows, 

I’m hung in limbo. 

The wind whizzes past, 

Crooning symphonies of a life  

That once was. 

Sepia memories slither around, 

Cradling me, 

Strangling me, 

Silvery shards of broken dreams, 

Gnaw at my skin. 

Gnash at my bones. 

  

Wispy white whispers 

Whirl’ n whisk, 

Close to my ears,  

Tinted with greys  

Of your afterthoughts  

‘Wish I knew.’ 

‘I would’ve helped.’ 

‘She looked okay.’ 

‘Really, but why?’ 

   

Dregs of my dwindled welkin, 

Crumbles of my cracked earth, 

Dribble. 

From my pocket, 

Plastering the pavement, 

Blurred, bare, broken, 

No longer hidden, 

  

I hit the sooty asphalt. 

My skull splits open. 

  

Ruby-red rivulet rushes out, 

Wailing with pain, 

Resent ‘n rejection  

Rescind their reign. 

  

The slate-black sorrow, 

Spews me out, 

From the seat of its stomach,  

The smithereens still stuck, 

In the seam of my spine 

  

Purple- plum scars of yore,  

Pullulate, pall ‘n proliferate,  

Penetrate my paper-thin skin, 

The cerulean sky around, 

Melts in the blues within, 

 

 Bronze brambles burgeon, 

Stifle, squelch, sedate  

My heart, 

The pain, the misery, 

The past plea… 

  

A pearly iridescent peace surrounds me, 

Letting me be, 

Finally, Free. 

  

I’ve been dead a long time, 

Death has salvaged me. 

  

 -by Supriya Bansal 

 

Author’s note- 

Most suicides are related to mental illness, with depression being one of the most prominent risk factors. People with complex psychopathologic disorders are overwhelmed by their pain and see death as the only way out. Scars here refer to physical scars inflicted upon oneself as a coping technique and psychological scars that leave lasting changes in one’s personality. 

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